Do all relationship comes with the past........... ??? soch lo !!!

 HMMMMMMMMMMMM...............socha socha bahut socha........... :-/ ,but relationships are always....eeeeewwww  !!! Sometimes i update "love is in the air"......sometimes i write " m sick of this ".....sometimes it is.." i know it happens "....but at the end lets just do it permanently dude....Relationship Status : " Its complicated "....so thats my recent facebook update and m sure its not just me !!! :-)

Now the question is why ....??? No no no...dont even dare waste your time to answer this.......coz its like " Does the hen came first or the egg "...you willl b travelling in a circle and you will just end up where you have started....because a relation has a Past...and a Future....but no Present...  :-/ !

So the story starts......I love a guy ....i can die for him ( i claim so ) and even he can do anything for me ( why cant he claim when i can )  ! He's just a perfect one for me.........like i ever imagined , for whom i waited all this 20 years........ :-)..........he's intelligent,he's smart,he listens me,he cares for me, and of all he brings smile to my face 24*7.....and my world just starts revolving around him the very instant.....Oh god thanx a lot.... :-) ! Everyone says "u r lucky girl ".....i blush.... :-) , i close my eyes, my happiness trickled down as tear. I tell my friends how generous he is.....i bet them to get a person who can pinpoint a single fault in him.....i try to make other couples envy seeing us ( it feels good u know :-p ) .......oh and my facebook update is " Love is in the airrrrrrrrrrr :-) :-) :-) ( i guess this many smilies are enough ) "....Love is so magical...its actually filmy,and i never imagined i can fall for someone ....but yes you are the one and you did it :-) !!!
So the next step i thought about was to make it official .....let me change my update to something more catchy :-p......and i turned on the laptop......entered my password , logged into facebook......annnnddddddd............... i cried and cried and cried ! Oh m sori actually i suffered a trauma that instant.......lets just rewind it back.....i saw a photo update on his fb album ( cant evn use word "bf " for him anymore )...." my love " was the title...my heart beat increased...oh did he officialised it before me.....awwwwwww he's so sweet.....and when it displayed i just felt like cracking his head with a vase if its possible.....it was his ex's girlfriend and a cropped photo of him on which he spend so much of time and just uploaded to make it  OFFICIAL i guess @#$%^&* !!!

I had no words to speak...nothing to claim now,nothing to listen,nothing to feel....i wanted to be alone ,i cant understand why he did ....so lets just call up and ask......
Me : "hello..........................."
He  : " Yes dear.....how are you my love "
Me : " What  *hit u have done in facebook "
He : " What dear "...( How can he be so fake all off sudden )
Me : " As if u dont know.....please do not waste my time,neither act ...b clear "
He : " Clear about what "
Me :  "That do you love me..."
He : " Ofcourse i do as always......why you asking such questions "
Me : " Because theres a pic with a tittle MY LOVE....and to my surprise its not me "
And he laughed ( I m confused )...
He : " Thats just a timepass my dear .....for fun ...my friends did that and i uploaded just to grab more comments.....ha ha ha ...dont take it seriously "

And i wanted to believe him,i wanted to believe his lies.....but that day i realised ...m a human with no extraordinary qualities,just with a  simple heart that wanna believe in everything that makes me feel happy and give me the feeling of victory and delightment ...however somwhere i do posses a foolishness of trusting someone blindly and dreaming of a world that can never exist in real.........A FAIRY TALE :-) !!! And that day i met my foolishness....i really thank him for that very moment ( rest i have forgotten ) coz i got back the girl i been always , love had changed me but now m back !!! So today... even I'm with a PAST....but its has made me much more stronger ....and i know with this i can have a beautiful FUTURE ahead......because for me again : " LOVE IS IN THE AIR "......... :-)  :-) :-)!!!

HAPPY ENDING :-) !!!

The girl next door......unseen !!!

    There i saw you ,
    sitting on the wall ,
    that seperates the mansion ,
    from the debris around ....

    You smiled so eloquently ,
    while chatting with your friend ,
    those eyes so glittering ,
    inspite of the dullness of cloud...

   That face so sagacious and radiant ,
    but layered with greyish sufferings ,
    still hope for the dreams ,
    so unreal in her existing bounds....

  The skeleton so virile ,
   that has withered yet unblossom ,
   though spreads fragrance of freshness ,
   like a rose kept in the book i found.....
 
  And there i saw the happiest life on earth ,
  searching to satisfy her hunger ,
  calming her friend who's barking aloud ,
  but still no blames in this filthy crowd.......!!!


 

And i love this MAN..... :-) !!!!

I entered home fully exhausted after a full one day journey ....and he was sitting there waiting for me with a smile.....i gave a big hug and kissed him !!! Oh now i feel relaxed......now m happy , we chat till late night and then when i reachd my bed , i thought about all the old times some which i treasure...some which i hate and some where i coud'nt be part of..... with you !!

Life's always been mysterious for me.......always unpredictable and full of surprises....sometimes good ,sometimes bad ,but he's the one who always inspired me to go on without looking back...!!! He's cool...he's smart....he's intelligent , he's responsible, bit egoistic also :-/ ......but full of liveliness...M amazed to see you so energetic 24*7 , and what i love about you is your "nothing is impossible " attitude  ! I know there's a big story behind all these....that includes lot of experience,observations and compromises...but you did well everytime .

I have seen those eyes filled with water but they never trickled down in front of me, i remember those lines on forehead but cleverly hidden with a smile,i know u stayed awake whole night with those fake snores ,  i know you lied to me on phone saying everythings going awsome though it was your worst period , i know you are alone but still say "I'm fine"... :-) !!! And that's why when m in trouble...i think of you !!!! You taught me to make the best out of worst , you taught me how to laugh when i want to cry , you taught me never to say " I cant "....you taught me to face the world alone.....you taught me to love the enemies !!! But hey i never said few line to you ever........m sorry for those parts where i coudnt be with you , i cherish every moment i have spend with you , il remember everything i learnt from you and i promise to make you say that "Daughter m proud of you "......!!! I LOVE U DAD.....and I WANNA BE  LIKE YOU :-)........@@@ !!!

OH my God......M loving itttt .!!!!!!!!

      What is the most beautiful feeling in this world....???  Some may say Love....some may say  Nature , for some it may be success......but for me its  just "SLEEP" , "SLEEP " and "SLEEP " !!! Oh god its like i have reached heaven......after the whole day hectic schedule and the tiredness when i see my bed.....i just love this feeling....!!!! I  wanna leave everything.....and run over my bed.....hold my pillow and slide inside the blanket ....oooooooooh and m in my dreamland....where i can do whatever i want.....in my way...thts my favorite  !!!
When i sleep i forget the tensions.....my undone works...my targets ....my future... at that instant m in my lost conciousness , i can listen my heartbeat.....i can sense the blood flowing my nerves.....and thats "ME " with whom i'm that moment ....!!!

Sleep is something undefined.....and as a student its the best part in my life ! After whole night study before exams,its like i been through the dangerous torture for long time .....and then i m presented with a special kit to relax myself and enjoy the most beautiful feeling ! That's the similar case with all working class also i guess......weekends are no more to enjoy and go for outing...rather its to "SLEEP" and keep lazing around .
Our mind works the best way when we sleep, taking us through all thoughts and THEN V DREAMMMMM .... :-) !!!!  No doubt someone defined it as a "BEAUTY SLEEP " ....more u sleep more beautiful you'l be....coz its that period of one's life when you think about the best part one always want in life..... so the irony sentence is- " guys keep sleeping to earn more success :-p ........." !

Oh my god......m just loving it than nything in this world....and i'm sure there are many in my que ... :-) !!!!
CHEERS ... :-) !!!

Less Of INDIA...More Of US !!!!

" India is a republic country " : this is the first statement we learn as a citizen of India . Now before we continue , take a break and just define "REPUBLIC" in your words......are you actually able to ...... i guess hardly few and we claim ourselves INDIAN ......strange !!! That's the story of our coutry and 'we'- the citizen of this nation .

I know its shameless......but still we are ready to continue with this shame as we claim ourselves too busy in life ! I agree that modernisation has left us with hectic schedule,but how can we implement these changes in India unless we know our country well . Recently India went through so many developing projects like the nuclear deal , Indian oil trio contract with venezuala , successful launch of Agni.....these are something we should be proud of  and proves that soon we'l be in the list of developed countries ..... but still the poignant question is when when and when...???  The answer lies on the other part of our country.....where still the law for compulsory education though initiated but not yet enacted strictly,where 33% reservations has been ensured for women in parliment but story is different as you step out of the parlimentary house , where still the statistics of suicidal cases of farmers is unknown and being hidden intensionally eventhough its increasing day by day........@@@ This is not the present scenario of India but its been passed on from generations and still continuing because we are still not shameless for our attitude towards our mother country ! We strongly believe in Blame Game , corruption is our requirement , gender biasing is in our culture , selfishness is in attitude and we are the "BUSIEST" person on earth !!! So we have these qualities as default character which needs to be checked and repaired as soon as possible !

From all this I'm not trying to be patriotic but its just that i realized faults in me today , and instead of blaming the society , the politicians and administration , i think its better to work upon myself  . India is a beautiful country with beautiful people and in a run of chasing our dreams we have forgotten about our behaviour , kindness and most important our responsiblities towards this society and country . I guess its never too late to do something and this is the right time to follow the step towards prosperity of  India in a better and efficient manner .So lets start from this small effort of taking out some time and surfing the site http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/India , i'm sure you learn a lot as i did and that's what inspired me to encourage you all !!!

Thanx to all  :-) !!

HOLD ON..................

Hey hold on !
Life's too long !
Don't be in hurry !
Don't forget the song !


I know you want to fly !
But for that , don't cry !
Live the moment , enjoy the life !
Feel the beauty , get mesmerize !


There's a dream , amid the sky !
Whenever you sleep , grow more high !
And these dreams you can't buy !
Can get them only when u try !


So here's the whole world waiting for you !
Eyes wide open to watch your show !
B'coz life's too long !
You just need to hold on........... !!!!!

Be@utifUl Lone$omE !!!!

Walking across the road ALONE i reached somewhere,i wonder where ...???? And as i looked around i was mesmerized by the beauty i been missing all along . One moment early i was upset,now i feel great and joyful in my lonesome too. Oh god ...no wonder u created this !!! Now i have life around me to make me feel better,i observed the nature deeply,i felt the love and happiness the best way when m "ALONE" because now its just about me and my thoughts !

Lonesome can b so beautiful i never knew before,i never enjoyed it ! Why i been crying all this time quoting myself the ' lonely man on the island ' when i always had so many things in and beyond my boulevard !! Oh i been really missing something i realized :-0 !

For me music was never so melodious , i can smell the best fragrance ever : made out of the flowers ,the O2 respirated out by leaves ( who said oxygen is odourless ) , air that touched the lake and i can now taste this fragrance - Its Amazingggggg !!!!!!!! I can listen the trees rubbing out their leaves,the birds slicing out the air and flying high ,breeze whispering in my ears ! My eyes can see them all , feel them all and yes i'm lucky :-) !

And i wonder why we feel being lonely is worst part in someone's life when we have this loyal forever happiness around us every moment .So just one advice - Take a break for yourself , go for a stroll alone and meet this "BE@UTIFUL LONE$OME " who's been lving inside u unmet so long:-) !!!

cheer's !!!!